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Name: Kate
Country: United States
State: Kentucky
Metro: Louisville
Birthday: 10/26/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: someday i am going to play for the new york phil or the CSO or something. or at least that's why i'm in school...to become the best damn horn player i can be! WORD!
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  katefh1
Member Since:
1/23/2005
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| i'm in St. Paul, Minnesota right now, and it's about midnight. i
should be sleeping, but i just can't seem to calm myself down
yet. my mind is racing with tons of thoughts, and i just don't
think i can sleep.
we went to an art museum today, which was pretty neat. there were
mostly unknown artists' works, but a few van Gogh's and
Matisse's. unfortunately i didn't have a favorite piece of
artwork, which sort of depresses me. usually i can find one piece
that i absolutely love, but this museum left me a little
unfulfilled.
this afternoon i got to talk to charles on the phone. we've been
e-mailing back and forth, and i think i would like to try dating
again. i'm just not sure that's what he wants to do. i saw
him a week ago in Sewanee, Tenn. and i had an amazing time. maybe
it's too soon to get back into a relationship. and honestly, i
guess i don't deserve another chance with him. the truth of the
matter is is that i really had no good reason to break up with him last
semester when we tried the dating thing. he was a great
boyfriend, but most of all a great friend. and i just kicked him
to the curb like it was nothing. for that i feel awful and also
like i will never be able to win him back. i really hope nobody
reads this. actually, i'm pretty sure nobody does anymore.
if you are reading this right now, please let me know so that i don't
type something totally secret in here. thanks...
anyway. maybe the whole situation with charles is just me feeling
lonely. maybe i rely too much on other people for my happiness,
which may very well be true. i'm having a little breakdown right
now. i've been doing so well up until this point. i haven't
cried in about 2 weeks, which is a record for me this summer! but
still, i feel lonely for someone's arms around me. but hey, it
will happen if it's meant to happen, right?
ok, i think i better try to get some sleep if i'm going to stay awake
at the zoo. my dad has his video camera, and is filming a
adventure/thriller/documentary. it should be finished in about 4
days, if anybody's interested in previewing the next big hit....
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| i went to turkey run today. it's this river and wildlife park in indiana. well, i went with claire, her dad and twin brothers, and claire's friend natalie. we went canoeing and hiking. man, it was a blast. i didn't tip the canoe once! go me! i rode mostly with claire's brother, simon. he's going to be a freshman in high school, but he is very cool. so we had a good time, and we were BY FAR the fastest canoe out there. haha. after that, claire, natalie, and i went on an hour long hike. and we definitely had to climb 140 stairs! it was insane. haha....we were all out of breath....at least i was. but of course i'm out of shape. now i'm at home, and i'm about to fall asleep. my eyelids are getting heavy, and i'm having a hard time forming complete sentences. yet, somehow my fingers keep typing....even though i really just want to crawl into my comfy big bed, with my cute kitty!
speaking of kitty...cosmo is going insane right now! i swear. every single night at around 11, it's like she becomes a different cat. she runs around the house aimlessly, attacking random objects, and sliding across the kitchen floor. it's hilarious. except when i'm trying to sleep and she's attacking my feet under the covers...that's a little annoying. but i never get mad at her...i mean how could i? she's adorable!
ok, time for some sleep. hope you all enjoy this entry...it may be my last....(but probably not). | | |
| home sweet home! i just spent about 5 days in sewanee, tennessee. (yeah, i didn't know where it was either)...but it was tons of fun. i got to play mahler 1 with a pretty decent orchestra and a great conductor. and i got to hang out with a few friends i haven't seen all summer. lindsay and i had tons of fun....maybe a little too much fun on friday night. i think we partied a little to hardy. haha...but it was good times. and i got to see charles again. i had missed him a lot this summer, so it made me really happy to get to hang out with him. i can't wait to spend time with him when we get back to school.
my kitty missed me i think...which is a good thing! although, he's been a little too affectionate towards my dad, i've noticed. i just hope she knows that HE didn't even want her at first! haha. anyway.....
i should probably go practice since i have the IHCA coming up very soon. i'm gonna suck in up in front of a bunch of judges and colleagues. but it's good experience, right? yeah, that's what i'll keep telling myself.
ok i'm off....probably to go play with the cat. | | |
| i got a kitty! she is so adorable! i think i've already mentioned her, but i just can't help it. she is so cute!
ok....i better go take a shower and get something accomplished today. later! | | |
| i've got about a month left of summer....wow. and yes, i have been slacking on this online journal thing. but let me tell you, i've had a crazy summer. some good stuff, some bad. most of all i'm just anxious to get back to school, and to start getting busy again. as much as i get stressed out with schoolwork and practicing, i'd rather be busy than totally free.
anyway. so want a little sinopsis of my summer? here goes:
i came home and spent an entire month hanging out with my boyfriend, hanging out with friends, and looking for a job. the next month was spent arguing with my boyfriend constantly, spending less time with friends, and NOT getting a job. i somehow managed to fall back into depression mode and to push lots of the people away from me...
so currently, i am single, hanging out with friends more and more, and volunteering at the library and the hospital. sounds like fun, right? ehh...i guess so. i'm still trying to get over the boyfriend thing. i thought he was possibly "the one," but things turned out much differently. but that's fine. now i can focus on myself and keeping me happy and healthy, right?
i'm going to tennessee on thursday. i'm pretty pumped. i get to go play mahler 1 with the sewanee summer music fest. it should be good times. i get to see my awesome buddy charles! and i get to play mahler 1...haha, what could be better? and then next week i'm going up to minnesota to visit my sister. it should be fun.
oh and one more bit of exciting news.....i got a kitty! she is a 4 month old tabby. her name is cosmo and she is absolutely adorable! she sleeps with me everynight, and wakes me up at 7 every morning. haha. i love her so much. seriously, having cosmo has helped me get over a bunch of stuff i've been going through.
well...i think i've updated you all on my summer, so i'm gonna leave it at that. hopefully i will keep this updated a lot better than i have been, but i'm not making any promises. a bientot!
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